Apologies

Tonight, I realized that I owe someone an apology.  While I have not always respected her and struggled to interact with her on a daily basis, I can understand and appreciate the things that motivated her, and I am sorry that I did not honor the light of Christ that was shining through her cracked exterior, just as the light of Christ is shining through my extremely cracked exterior.  And, regardless of whether I can say anything kind about her, I can say that she was brave and that she did things when she believed in them.  I am much more likely to sit back and passively judge people for doing things incorrectly, when really I should be judged for not doing them at all.

I also owe God an apology, for not trusting that He could work through the person I struggled to work with.  Although one particular choice made by this person impacted my life and the lives of people I care about in a challenging way for a long season, I am coming to see that this choice also made possibly the glorification of God here on this earth.  Tonight, I had several wonderful conversations that reminded me that is God who is at work in all things, not people, making possible all sorts of miracles.

So, Creator and Redeemer of All, I'm sorry I underestimated You.  Thank you for constantly turning my expectations upside down and backwards, and for working in ways that are of Your kingdom and not mine.  Please show me how to live in the Kingdom, even while every fiber of my being tries to convince me that reality is something else.  I love you.
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